I miscarried a little over a year and a half ago...

back in 2016 I found out I was pregnant with baby number 3! I got pregnant at 17 due to a broken condom. I lost the pregnancy 13.5 weeks later right before my anatomy scan. fast forward to 2013. I got pregnant with my now four year old baby girl! I had her in 2014! We've always wanted two kids. So November of 2016 we found out I was pregnant again! Christmas came and I wasn't feeling well at all. December 27th 2016 I was rushed to the ER. I was losing another baby. How am I going to tell my daughter? Is all I could think. Her heart was shattered. Since I had a baby in between the two miscarriages they weren't concerned. So we waited until we were both mentally ready to try again. April of 2017 We decided to start trying again. We never really gave up trying, but April was when we started REALLY trying again. I mean intercourse every day of the month except the four day i have my period for. Here we are August of 2018 and still nothing. I've had thyroid testing done, I've had ultrasounds done on everything, I've had blood testing done. They can not find anything medically wrong as to why I have yet to concieve. So today I did it. I gathered up the courage to call a fertility specialist and set up an appointment. I am so scared. I don't want to be told I'll never have another baby. I want to be the one to decide that, not my body. I've been with the same man for 10 years. All three pregnancies were with him. I know I can get pregnant. I also know I can carry and deliver a child. But that was four and half years ago. I am only 26. My LO leaves for school full time the end of this month. I am a wreck. The fertility specialist is booking out to December of this year. She's the ONLY one around me that takes my new insurance. She's going to see if she can squeeze me in tomorrow afternoon before she leaves for vacation for two weeks. I will know tomorrow morning if she was able to. They put my appointment request in as high priority because of how long we've been trying. They are pretty sure that me being on anti depressants for 14 years has caused a hormone issue which can be fixed easily with hormone treatments. (I found out after fourteen years of taking the medications that I was a victim of a misdiagnosis which means I took medication for fourteen years without needing them.) My mother died when I was young so I never really knew which questions to ask the psychiatrist. I just figured he was a doctor so he knew what he was doing. It wasn't until he retired and I had to find a new doctor that I was informed of my misdiagnosis. I am hoping that's what the issue is since it is easily fixable, but I am still so scared. Sorry for the long post. If you got this far thank you for listening.