So lost & sad

My wife and I have had three unsuccessful medicated IUIs, and today was the consultation with the doctor to discuss whether to try a fourth. We went in confident we were going to try again but I’m feeling so torn after talking to the doctor, who said that we only have about a 5% chance of getting pregnant with this IUI. I want to experience pregnancy and breastfeeding so badly but I also am not sure it’s worth spending $3,500 on another one with only 5% chance. And go through the hell of the meds with so little chance of getting pregnant.

Sunday morning at church I got this overwhelming feeling that this was our month, but Sunday evening I got this overwhelming feeling we were supposed to move on to adoption now. I don’t have a clue what God wants us to do and I feel so lost and confused.