Need to Cry on Someone’s Virtual Shoulder

Hi all, I just got a full time job, whoopee. Yeah it’s good I’m just kind of over being happy about it especially since he’s not here. I miss my S.O. so much. We shared so much together intimately, now my hearts just broken for him but at the same time I’m mad because his schedule is so conflicting with mine. If I can barely make it through this deployment how am I ever going to make it through another? I just want him to be there for all the good things that happen in life. I know that’s how it has to be that he serve his country before me but I’m sooo lonely. I went to a party last week and got kissed by a guy I was so embarrassed and I swore of even being around guys until he comes home. I need some girlfriends but I live in an itsybitsy town, with mostly farmers and farm wives.

What if he wants to stay in the military as a life career?- Im not sure I could handle that.

If anyone has any advice or sympathetic words they would be really helpful.