I don't "love" my baby yet...

I'm posting this anonymously and I don't know if anyone else relates...

I am reading how much you are all loving your unborn babies and my heart sinks everytime, because I don't feel anything like it.

I do want and hope for this baby to be safe and healthy and I will love and take care of it but whilst still inside (and not feeling many kicks yet) I cannot say love.

I worry about how my life is going to change and wether or not it will become harder and I able to cope.

I'm over 35 and financially we cannot support more than 1 child and likely never able to afford a house in London.

I know he will be loved and well cared for, but cannot feel that "love" I feel most if you express towards your own.

(Not looking for any answers per se, just had to get it off my chest)

Love to you all xx