What is wrong with me?...

I’m in a constant state of worry that things won’t get done, and then I worry all of the time when they’ll get done or when I’ll have the time to do them. My phone is FULL of lists of things like grocery lists (even if I’m not going grocery shopping any time soon), things to do, things that need to be done that may never get done, places to go, and even lists for plans that will never happen. I jot down everything in a list.

When I start on a list such as a cleaning list, and it doesn’t get done I stress and my anxiety goes through the roof because it didn’t get done. I have somewhat learned to control that by trying to make smaller lists at a time that are more manageable, but then I find myself making another smaller list all on its own because I don’t want to add too much to the first list. Then I’m stuck thinking it all needs to be done NOW.

I’m starting to feel like I’m going crazy and I’ve broke down over this because I think I am. I don’t know what is wrong with me.