I just need to vent

I wish he’d stop playing that game all the time. I’m the only one who ever does anything around the house and I’m stressed out and I need a break. He doesn’t see it. I’m so tired of it. I get he wants to relax... but I’m either cleaning or on my phone. Either way I’m bored to death. I just wish he’d try to involve me and landon into something.

I want to leave. I want someone to want me again. I want someone to want to spend time with me and not constantly play a freaking game or do absolutely anything than spending time with me. I want someone who will open up to me. He hardly talks to me unless it’s about his job or fishing or his stupid game.

I feel like all he wants most of the time is to just get off and then he’s all cuddly after or while he’s trying to get in my pants.

I never get to talk to anyone because I’m constantly stuck in house. I feel more like a slave than anything. I was hoping writing this out would make me feel better but it’s just making things worse.

I’m trying to think about all the good things he does at the same time but I can’t find much.

He works hard for us and is a decent dad to his son. He’d probably be better if he was around more but he can’t be. Plus when he is home, he’d rather play a video game than spend time with anyone.

Maybe things would be better if the game was gone?

I keep crying and he’s not seeing anything and I don’t want to say anything and feel like an idiot because I tried to express what was going on.

I feel like he doesn’t try at all anymore. He doesn’t do anything I ask of him. I’m not asking to go on an expensive date or anything... just a walk through down town at night or turn some music on and light some candles and just dance with me. Bring me a rose, I just want those little sentimental things. Doesn’t matter how much I express that....he doesn’t care.

What stresses me out more is I can go to Walmart by myself but sometime I just want him to come with me. I want him to spend that time with me. He won’t because all he wants to do is play a video game.

Maybe I’m selfish because I want him to be more involved, but I don’t think I am being unreasonable....

I guess when you’ve been together for 3 years you don’t get to say much of what you want anymore.

Part of me thinks that there is someone out there who’d be willing to give me everything I’m asking for here, but I don’t want to start over when we are taken care of. I also don’t want to be here and be miserable for the rest of my life either.