i want to..

sometimes I want to skin myself idk why but I see my leg or wrists and I want to skin myself and I want to cut. I cut pretty deep last night because I was really frustrated and couldn't sleep. I'm not tired rn but I have to sleep soon idk what's wrong with my anymore. I'm sick of being called crazy. no one even knows I cut not even that im depressed and stuff not even my family knows. I don't really have a relationship with anyone in my family I kinda just stay to myself but I'm not okay.