I get angry

With my depression/PDD I’ve struggled with my anger . It’s an overwhelming sense where you just want to smash everything in your sight . I accidentally burned my self whilst taking a tray out of the oven and after it healed a bit I cut it open . Now I’ve found when ever I got angry it’s my release to cut . I’ve only done it twice including the burn and I’m quite worried I’ll do it again . It was painless didn’t even hurt like cutting toast. . Anyway that’s my story 😭