No sex for you

I cannot even remember the last time we've had sex, let alone sexual contact. He says he has the drive but " we're busy or he's busy or there's other things going on or sleeping... "

Mind you, I haven't done any initiating but I'm also doing this thing to see just how long he can go and it's a pretty damn long time.

So, my self esteem is just at an all time low. No appearance compliment except today, he complimented the way my hair looked.

So yeah, no sexual initiation and it's been a while. Like I cannot remember the last time. It was in August sometime?

But when I communicate, I'm insane for thinking it's about me or my looks.

When discussed, he expresses I'm REALLY good so it doesn't seem to be lack of enjoyment unless he's a liar.

Oh and apparently he's also not masturbating during fucking abstinence times. Guy's dick is either hella backed up or lying.

Whatever dude. You're missing out.