breaking up

Hello wonderful girls! These past two days have been some of the worst days of my life. I’m 16 and my boyfriend of several months dumped me yesterday. He’s going to be a senior and i’ll be a junior and he said he wanted to go into the year “single.” He is a very complex person, he definitely has a lot of unfixable problems that affected him at a young age such as his parent’s messy divorce, past depression, etc. he’s in what my school considers the group of attractive “popular” kids. And all of the kids in that group are hard partiers, drug users, etc. I’m just not into that. Anyways, over the past several months he and I have made tons of memories, and i’m just totally in love with him. The issue is, he apparently “doesn’t feel the same way anymore.” We broke up in person after we had sex, because I started crying like twenty minutes after because I sensed he was going to end things. Then he started crying too and all of a sudden we were both squeezing eachother and sobbing his eyes out. He said I was perfect the whole relationship and all of the issues in our relationship were because of his problems. It makes me cry everytime i think about how sad he looked yesterday. Anyways, sorry for the super long post. I’m just so incredibly sad, guys. I love him so much and it kills me that he’s in so much pain and he thinks he doesn’t deserve anyone to love him. I wish so badly that I could have him back because I think we both really loved eachother even though he said he didn’t love me anymore. I totally wasn’t and still am not ready or prepared for this breakup. What am I supposed to do to feel better? I really don’t want to move forward without him is the issue. He took my virginity, he was my first real boyfriend and he was amazing to me despite the alcohol and drug issues that he faced. and I’m just so sad. help