Struggling to decide

Hubs and I have our wedding in a little less than a month, but we’ve been married since February. I take 3 months on birth control and 1 week off. I’m in my week off, and I’ve gotten my period, so no baby yet, but I’m having a really hard time with the idea of going back on my birth control.

I really want to try for a baby immediately following the wedding, and I’d like to give my body a little time to recoup- but I don’t have a regular doctor or an OB, and I have a lot of chronic illnesses I need to be on top of before making any choices.

So I’m just feeling a little sorry for myself that things aren’t lining up they way I wanted.