So i had an emergency c-section 2 weeks ago. And my whole pregnancy my SO has told me that he is not happy he hasnt been for years. That im not the girl he feel in love with. ( i was 20 when we meet) and he will give our marriage till the end of my pregnancy to see if we can fix it or he loves me again. ( but the whole time he went out with his friends to the bar, or drinking, or fishing. He didn't touch or talk to me really. ) so one moment he tells me he dont want to be with me than the next he tells me he loves me and wants to work it out. I had the baby. He talks about me giving him head the very nxt day im home from the hospital. He has been going out most weekends( that he doesn't have to work) with friends fishing. While im at home with both the kids. He hasnt helped me at all. Than last night he asked me to find some hooker or an escort so he can have sex. And he said he don't want me to be there when i do find someone. ( what makes hime think i would be ok with him screwing someone else?!?) Cause he has to wait 4 more weeks. And me giving him blow jobs and handys is not good enough and he dont know if he can wait. All i want to do is cry. I feel freaking stupid for loving him as much as i do :( has much as he puts me down. 😢