Who am I Honestly ?

I’ve always had this thought of being a guy and what if I’m trans but when I change my appearance will I regret it cause I don’t wanna look unattractive 😂 and throughout my middle school life I been asking myself what if I’m trans I mean can I be trans ftm but still be pansexual and dress like a girl. Because my brother is like just stay as a girl since your into guys but he doesn’t understand, anyone have an idea of who I might actually be? I started thinking this more after some of my friends came out and know I really am curious and thinking about what I’ve thought about I feel like it’s right but I feel like I would regret it idk.