Alot of people face 2 or three years before finally getting a positive pregnancy test. But eight? I havent heard any personal experiences beyone 3 maybe 4 years. I feel like a broken woman. Which affects everything. My confidence and self esteem, my sex life.. my sex drive has been way down becaus like whats the point? But i mostly fake it because he shoulsnt be deprived because im in my feelings. And it kills me people that dont want kids or deserve them are often blessed more than once .. shoot more than twice. I also feel bad for my bf Trai.. he wants a family as bad as i do. Im 26 hes 32. For him its time. And it kills me that i cant do that for him or me. I often think about leaving so he has a chance to find someone who he can have the family he deserves with.... Gosh! Im so tired of disappointment and making my self feel tiny and wrong. So i bought a puppy hoping to ease it... i love Boobah (the pup) but its an urge that wont leave me alone. I just want to accept and move on or finally become preggo and end up taking back everything i just said lol😂😂 it hurts your soul and peoples "one day", "its just not ypur time yet", "As soon as you stop trying itll happen" .... blah blah blahblah ... dies not help. Only hypes me up to think theres a chance. **END OF RANT** can anyone relate or idk.. you guys i just dont know. Im mentally and emotionally

exhausted.