Mixed emotions about the baby’s sex

Today we got the results of my Sneak Peek test: it’s a boy!!

I feel guilty saying this, but I’m a little...disappointed. I have a 13 month old daughter and she is everything to me. I thought for sure I’d have another girl. I just had this vision in my head of my two little girls. We have a ton of girl stuff - clothes, bows, toys - and I figured this next baby would get to use all of it.

But a boy? I’m completely shocked! My husband and I aren’t into sports. I’m a girly girl. I do have two younger brothers, but the idea of having a boy seems so foreign to me.

I feel terrible that I feel this way. Having a healthy baby is all that should matter. Hopefully the shock will wear off and I’ll be able to find the joy in it. Have any other mamas been in the same situation? And boy moms out there with encouragement?

As a side note, this whole pregnancy has been a bit tougher to handle. With my daughter, I wanted to be pregnant SO badly. I was so excited. I wanted a girl, and it felt like my dreams were coming true when I found out I was getting my daughter.

This time, I’d just gotten my period back after the birth (took 9 or so months to return) and although we weren’t preventing pregnancy, I was hoping I’d have a few more months before getting pregnant. I told my husband firmly to pull out. And he didn’t. So when I found out I was pregnant, I had a lot of emotions. I felt like it happened without my trying for it, if that makes sense. And now to find out we’re having a boy makes my emotions even crazier.