Can’t stop worrying

I know whatever’s going to happen is going to happen and it’s out of my control and I’m trying soooo hard to just hand it over to god but I’m 4 days away from when my last baby stopped growing (9.3) and I started passing clots and blood at 10 weeks. I’m so scared for my rainbow baby actually in all reality I’m scared for my heart because my rainbow baby would be in gods hands if god forbid anything did or does happen. Please god allow this beautiful blessing to continue to grow healthy and bless any other mama that is in this situation of being terrified. Thanks for listening ladies. God bless