HOW FREAKING DARE YOU ⚠️long post⚠️

Background: I have been on Birth control since I was roughly 13 years old. My mom started me on the pill after she seen how bad my periods were/are, every time I would start my period the cramps were so painful and there was so much blood I would sometimes miss school and most of the time lay around in pain. I Never remembered to take it so my mom wanted to put me on something else, and it just escalated from there, and now im 20 years old and have been on 4 out of 6 birth controls offered to females (more common ones anyway)

I've always struggled with birth controls, I've always felt "off" when I was on them but nobody ever really listened to me and my mom made the final choice. So after being on the pill, depo, and patch at 15 my mom landed on the arm implant. For those who dont know what that is, it's a small bar that they put under your skin in your bicep area and it's good up to 3 years, doctors comsider it to be one of the most effective types of birth control. I was so mad when my mom FORCED me to get on this birth control because it meant I couldn't stop taking it when it made me feel "off" like all the others had. After getting this birth control in I bled for a lovely SIX MONTHS, almost my whole freshman year of high school I am on my period, to add to that I had just started a new school in a new town and knew nobody. My mom refused to take me back to the doctor or even call them to find out if it was normal to bleed that long (still dont know to this day) So I stay on this birth control the next 3 years and deal with complete and under BULLSHIT. I would go from not having a period for 6months to a year to, bleeding for 3 to 4 months at a time. I had to deal with drastic mood changes and weight gain. I didn't really recognize myself after getting on this birth control, I felt like a completely different person emotionally and physically.

Finally it came times to get the birth control removed and replaced. As the time approached I talked with my current boyfriend about how all these birth controls always made me feel 'off' and how I was dreading another three years of it. As we talked more we came to the conclusion that the hormones produced by these birth controls were throwing off my already messed up hormones (I'm extremely bi-polar, I have bad depression and anxiety) So we discussed me not getting back on birth control and everything that pertains to not being on a birth control and decided birth control was just not for me (we did a lot of research and talked to doctor friends)

My doctors appointment finally comes and it's time to be free of this demon I have been dealing with for so many years. We go in to my local OB/GYN, where I got the implant in originally and used to be my doctors. I've never really liked them but, it was the cheapest place for an uninsured 19 year old with a minimum wage job. The doctor comes in get the birth control out no problem, then cames the inevitable. She asks if I want to get it back in I tell her no, she doesn't push or say anything. She finishes up and I think we are ready to go, but boy was I WRONG.

She goes into talking about other birth controls, and I sit and listen and wait my turn so I can explain to her why I'm not getting back on ANY birth control and yes that I understand what the risks are and we want to possibly start trying for a baby. She looks at me like I have six heads, and visibly gets upset with me and starts more aggressively pushing for me to get on either of the two specific ones she thinks is best. I once again tell her why I've decided against it thinking maybe she just didnt understand. At this point she looks like I just kicked a puppy and is very obviously mad at me for denying birth control. She is basically yelling at my boyfriend and I, treating us like children and talking down to us and INSISTING I get on birth control. Ive had enough at this point and basically tell her, I know my rights as a patient and if she continues treating us this way she will be reported. She finally stops and walks out of the room comes back into the room, hands me an after care packet about keeping the area on my arm clean and two foil packets. I dont really pay attention to them and we leave the office and get in the car. As we are leaving I'm sorting my papers and I take a look at the foil packs and realize she just handed me the Nuva ring birth control (one of the two she insisted i use)and an information sheet on how to use it and take care of it. I am livid at this point, after almost an hour of going back an fourth with her she has the nerve to hand me something I clearly didnt want. I was so angry i could have probably spit nails. I felt like she was trying to make decisions in my life she had no right to make. I never ended up reporting her but I made damn sure that after I got pregnant that I would not be going back to that office. Now I am 24 weeks pregnant with a happy healthy little boy, and part of me wants to go back just as an 'up yours'.

Thank you to anyone who took the time to read this long post all the way through you are the realtor MVP.