AGHH emotions

So I’m in love with BTS and I’m usually always freaking out about them but atm with my period I’m like almost on the verge of tears because I know I can never be with them even though they are utterly perfect in every way and I love them but they don’t even know I exist and just want to just be with Jimin and know that he loves me as much as I love him but that’s never possible because I will always love him more because he is the most beautiful, kind, loving, talented, simpathetic person and I love him so much.... well yeah I guess you get the idea