12dpo no luck 😩 af in 2 days

All I did was want a + sign. All I wanted was to tell my husband we are expecting our second baby. All I wanted was to send out all the pictures to our families and tell them another grandbaby is on the way. We tried and I mean tried this month. Everyday of my fertile window, we used opk, we both took vitamins. I am just so disappointed at 12dpo still receiving BFN. 😩 all I want is another baby, all I want is a big family. I thought I had symptoms but I guess I really didn't 😩

I was going to take a test tomorrow at 13dpo but I don't even think I want to do that. Af in 2 days.