My husband doesn't want me

We have been married for 3 months. And he keeps rejecting me for sex. We have sex literally maybe once a week. He says he just doesn't have the drive. It makes me feel unattractive.

On our third month anniversary I found out he has been addicted to porn for our entire relationship. The day before that, I cut my hair and had JUST gained confidence like I had never had before. I gained that confidence just to have it destroyed. I have struggled with my weight all my life. I have lost over 100 pounds but I have body dysmorphia (I still see the 350+ pound me).

My husband isn't attracted to me. I will NEVER look like a fucking pornstar. I will NEVER be fucking good enough for him. And I will NEVER feel secure having sex with him again.

Some things you need to understand.. 1) we both view watching pornography as cheating and betrayal. 2) we are not breaking up. We will make it work. 3) I am not even mad at him for it. I don't blame him for wanting something better than me. I am mad that he lied to me about being beautiful to him and him being attracted to me.

I am extremely hurt and needed to get it out anonymously.