Down and feeling cheated 😞

I’m 30 weeks and been on modified bed rest for the past 2 weeks due to a placenta previa bleed. I’ve been trying to keep positive but today is one of those days where everything just comes crashing down.

After being hospitalized for 4 days because of a significant bleed my doctor ordered me on modified bed rest and I had to quit my job. On top of the placenta previa I was also told it looks like I have placenta accreta (placenta attached too tightly to the uterus). Which I could potentially lose my uterus if the placenta won’t detach.

This is my first child and I had planned to have at least one more... I am extremely grateful for the little boy I am being blessed with but it is very depressing to know that i might become sterile at only 25 😞

I feel like I can’t even enjoy my pregnancy anymore because I have been cheated of the experience. I can’t leave the house much less do maternity pics or spend time with friends before my baby arrives. I’m alone during the day while my husband works to support our growing family. I so desperately want to do the things that normal people do like go to work or the store and dinner with friends

Sorry for the long post... I just feel like you ladies would understand better than my friends or family