Friday 14th September I found out I was pregnant, I've been taking the contraceptive pill a"Loestrin 20" for a few years now only for it to fail at the most awkward time.

My boyfriend and I are both 19, and both in our second years of college, (his last year, my second to last year), and we knew that there was no way we could have this baby and finish our education at the same time.

Abortion has always been something I've worried about, I've always said to myself that if I was to ever need one, I'd have to get it done before there was a heartbeat. I knew I was roughly around 5 weeks along.

Today (18/9/18), I went to the abortion clinic, during the ultrasound, the nurse could only see a sac an nothing else, so she had to do an internal, which said I was 5w5days :( I went through with the abortion and it is something that I never want to go through ever again! I'm all over the place, my boyfriend and I didn't want to do this but we had to, and as soon as I started bleeding the guilt set in, I just hope this feeling goes away, the mental and physical pain 😭