Okay... I was scared to post this but I’m getting an abortion. I’ve never had one I’m 8.5 weeks right now. I have a 2 year old son and I’m a single mom. And I know A LOT of people will say you laid down and made the baby you need to raise it. But honestly I’m not ready. I’m not even 20 yet and I’m just making it by with my son.

People have sex it happens these things happen and people slip up and boom here we are pregnant when all we wanted was to share an intimate with another person like people do every where all the time.

This pregnancy has been full of it own complications so far I’ve been to the hospital 4 times because of severe bleeding and cramps and the nausea where I can’t keep a thing down and can barely keep up with my son.

I’m not ready for a second child and it’s sad because I want this baby but if all I’m going to do by having it is put it through the same crappy life I had then how can that be good.?

And I know adoption is an option I looked into adoption with my first child and I couldn’t do it as time got closer and closer to my due date I couldn’t give my baby up I loved him I loved the kicks and hiccups I couldn’t give him up. So now that I have an option before I’m too far along I’m going to choose the one I feel is best. It’s sad and I’ll carry it with me for the rest of my life that I made this choice but I’m not ready.

So if you’ve read this far what I’m looking for is anyone who’s gone through with abortion that can just talk to me and tell me your experience and how you got through it and what happens how did you feel.?? I just I’m scared and there’s no one else I can talk to.

Update:

I got the abortion and I had to do surgical and it hurt they could only do semi sedation so it was a cup of some pills. They mostly made me tired and when I was having the procedure done the nurses and dr did a great job just talking to me and holding my hand and talking me thru the process I didn’t cry I just wanted to go to bed. After I went home and just slept I didn’t cry until the next night and every night since then I cried. I don’t regret my decision but I definitely think about it a lot and get sad. But in the long run I wasn’t ready for the baby and it was the right choice. A couple days ago I had some bad cramps like really bad and I was passing blood clots that covered a long pad front and back and was soaking about 4 pads an hour planned parenthood advised me to go into ER where I found out I got a bacteria that was causing me to basically bleed out how I was. I’ve now been prescribed 3 things to fix the bacteria and help with the cramps. Definitely was not happy about getting an ultrasound to see if there was anything wrong it just made me sad. But I’m doing better now and I’m just trying to move on.