please help me‼️‼️‼️

this is gonna be long but for the sake of my health I need help!!!!

almost two years ago I got out of a abusive relationship, almost a year ago I got into a relationship with someone. our 9 month is the 26th. I have extreme trust issues. I don’t trust anyone fully, not even my mum. only god. when me and this guy got together about 3-4 months after something was telling me to go through his phone and I ignored it for two weeks then it got so bad where that’s all I thought about. so I went through his phone and I found messages between him and his best friend. his best friend was saying how “he needed to chose between this girl(he actually said the name) or her” and then the reply from my boyfriends phone was “stay the fuck out of my business, I can handle this myself”. and then I went through the pictures and there was a picture and it looked like a girl laying in bed, all you could see was her face and what looked to be her laying with a blanket close to her face. and the lighting looked as if it was a lamp or a very dim room light. and so I went to the description of the picture and it was taken at 9:30 at night. I confronted him about it. he said the messages were from someone else, one of his friends actually “had to use his phone” and then the picture he said was taken in class and the fuzzy thing that looked like a blanket was a jacket. something still didn’t sit right with me. then there was a time where he said his mum was coming to get him and at the time his mum didn’t like me but luckily he had friends that lived right down the street from me. so he went to the friends house. a red car pulled up and he got in well my ass acted like I had to check the mail. the car went by me and I looked in and didn’t see him. then there was a time where he did the same thing but it was a different car. he is black so keep that in mind. I was outside waiting for him to get picked up. well I looked at everyone that went by. a white girl cane by and there was someone sitting in the back. I couldn’t see them because the windows were tinted enough that I couldn’t see the color of the person, but I could definitely see someone was in there. (and please in NO way am I trying to be racist so please no one think that) so they went to his friends house and he got into the car. something was telling me to call him. so I called him and no answer. I then texted him. no answer after 5 minutes. this boy is ALWAYS on his phone. so “crazy bitch” kicked in and I called him 4 more times. NONE of them were answered. I called him again, and he shut his phone off. 50 minutes go by and he text me and says chill and I text him saying I seen him get into a car with girls that were NOT like his mum like he told me. and he said “yes because my mum sent my sister and her friend.” and I said “ok that’s weird because last time I checked none of your sisters are white.” and he said that the white girl I seen was my sister and his sister was in the back. I was confused on why his sister was in the back of her FRIEND’S car when all they are doing is picking up her little brother. he says it’s bc he is too tall to sit in the back. well I have a friend who is like 2 inches shorter than him and he fits in one of the exact same cars and still have enough room to be taller.

then there was me feeling like he was flirting with other girls and I confronted him and he made me feel bad about thinking it which hurts. but he “changed the password” to his snapchat. well “had his friend” change it. deleted his Instagram. made a new snap and insta and gave me the password to both. so tell me why this boy is still on his old Snapchat and most the people on there are girls that he is talking to???? so I talked to him about it and he said he was in there a couple of times to get important people’s snaps and that was all. he said he would stay off of it from now on. so I said ok and believed him. and this girl that I told him to be careful of has his number. he came over to my house and he smelled like sex it booty one of the two. he got dropped off at my house but I wasn’t there when he was dropped off. his lips also stank like pussy it booty. so I got the feeling to go through his phone. I kept telling myself no but I got a feeling that I NEEDED to know something that was on his phone. not only is he on his other Snapchat, he is talking to this little girl that I told him to please be careful about. he is also talking to hella females.

another one, he said we were gonna hang out tonight. and I said that I could hang out at 11:30 because that’s when I am not busy and he said ok I’ll see you at 11:30. so I get ready and tell him I am ready when he gets here and then 10 minutes later he text me “honestly it won’t be till 1-1:30 till I get there” and I ask him why and he says bc he wants to hang out with his friend at his house for a bit. so I’m bummed bc I might not even be able to at that time. 1 rolls around and I text him to ask him where he was at. no answer for like 10-12 minutes. so I go on Snapchat and use the location thing and he is all the way across town from his friends house. so I FaceTime him and no answer. I FaceTime him 3 more times. all no answers. I text him and ask him where the fuck he is because my mind runs to he fucking with someone. 5 minutes later he calls me and I ask him where he is at and he said he is at the park playing basketball with his friends..... you wanna know something funny? there isn’t a basketball hoop at this park.

what do I do? I am so so confused. I for real love him with my whole heart. am I being a controlling bitch or do I seriously have something to be concerned about? please help! I am sorry it’s so long but I felt like i needed to give all the examples.