Try not to judge me

I'm not posting this anon because I want to reply and be honest about how I'm feeling because maybe someone else has been where I am.

Everybody seems to want the twins to come and cant wait to meet them and blah blah.. I totally can. I feel like I'm not enjoying this pregnancy as much because it's my last pregnancy. I know financially we wont be able to have more children and it's also hard on me being a stay at home mom. But I like get so bitter at people when they get so excited for the babies to come. I dont want this to be my last time. I'll miss my belly and how sweet my hubbs has been to me. Then I feel so guilty because I'm not enjoying the pregnancy like I want to.

Not to mention, I'm so stressed thinking of taking care of two babies at once and how much of a HUGE change this will be with my other kids, hubbs, and my own relationship. It's scary and stressful. I'm usually an optimist but lately just so caught up in all of what's going on.

Am I just so emotional and crazy or just being realistic in what is to come?

Thanks for your support ❤