Relationship advice 🙁

So this guy and I have been on and off for almost a year. We use to be really unhealthily together. Always lying and fighting. We decided to try things one last time and it’s going really good. No lying, no fighting, we do good. But for whatever reason I’m having doubts. Before, anytime something came up, I would just leave. I’m trying to be better this time.

When him and I were broken up the last time I dated another guy. This guy was amazing and treated me great but he had some little things that I didn’t like. I caught him in some lies so I ended things. That’s when I got back with the first guy. But I’ve really been missing the second.

I don’t know if I should just end things and stay away from guys for a while (I’m going through a lot, my dad just died and my family is moving out of state and whatnot) but I’m usually really bad at staying away from guys. Should I stick it out and see what happens? Or? I have no clue what to do about these feelings.