These feelings!!! “🚨LONG STORY ALERT🚨”

Okay I know I’ll probably receive judgmental comments which is why I’m posting anonymously lol but I just need some advice or just simply get this off my chest.

So I have a legit supermarket to do my grocery shopping right, been going for past three years. And about a year ago I seen this very handsome man (Angel) works there lol, always smiled at each other but never approached each other in anyway. I was in need of a job so I decided to apply there about 6 months ago from today. Never expected to get hired honestly. When I got the call to go in for my 2nd interview to sign papers and get to know the department I was going to be assigned too I met this other guy (Jason) who had gotten hired same day as me as well. So basically went to the job orientation together, got trained by the company together, got same shifts together and everything since we where both the two new people. During that time I also found out I would be working in the same department as (Angel) the cutie I always see working there lol. We exchanged names and everything but never really had a legit conversation due to having different schedules.

After a few weeks passed (Jason) and I got close started texting and he would call me at night and our days off just to chat. Which was nice having a friend too have a decent conversation with about work and things outside of work.

I’d see (Angel) as well at work sometimes and he would start conversations with me and try to get to know me which was fine with me seeing we’d be working together so we should get to know each other as friends. We exchanged numbers as well and kept it friendly as well.

(Jason) kept asking me when I’d like to go out with him to have dinner and I always told him some day when where both free from work we’ll go, and he was fine with that. We both never had a set schedule so we always had to check our schedule to see our days off and when we’d work.

One day (Jason) and I had to close together till 11pm, we clocked out and everything and he asked me if I wanted to relax and talk for a bit before going home I said sure why not. I hopped in his car we listened to music , cracked jokes, laughed and had decent conversation that led up to him surprisingly kissing me, I didn’t push him off or anything so the kissing continued. After the kissing was done I told him I had to go home which he was completely fine with and said yeah it’s late either way, I’ll see you tomorrow at work and we both went our separate ways from there. We never mentioned the kiss at all just smiled every time we’d see each other, the calls continued even more and texts as well but I never hopped back in his car after work lmao.

Two weeks or so passed I went to a bar to have some drinks with my girls and seen (Angel) there as well, we laughed and I felt so comfortable with him we had some drinks and ate, the night was perfect let me tell you lol. My girls left home I stayed there and continued my night with him just laughing sharing stories. We where getting ready to leave and everything he walked me to my car and ended up doing it in the car ( yes we used protection) lmao. But I swear it felt so right with him I can honestly say it was amazing lol. He made me feel so safe and comfortable. The next day we had the same shift and everything was good he kept telling me he really likes me and that we should talk about what happened between us that night, I agreed to bring it up and discuss what went down, he told me he’d love to take me out one night we both have a day off and do things right since we both had drinks that night it all went down, so I agreed with him. Which unfortunately after I didn’t see him for two weeks after that went down. I felt bad seeing he probably didn’t want anything to do with me and just seen me as a one night stand lol.

Then a week or so passed and (Jason) asked me out to dinner! I was shook to even answer due to what happened with (Angel) and I . But seeing (Angel) hadn’t talked to me and I hadn’t seen him due to the schedule changes I agreed to go out with (Jason) to dinner as friends. (Jason) doesn’t know what went down with me and (Angel) so I didn’t mention it neither lol. So long story short , (Jason) and I finished having dinner went to his house and of course ended up having intercourse. We were very comfortable with each other before, during and after sex it was crazy amazing as well. Lol Days and weeks passed by and he kept asking me when he can take me out again, calling and texting every now and then but we where both so busy with work we didn’t get the chance to go out again.

During those days , (Angel) decides to message me saying he’s been very busy with work seeing as he has two jobs but he’d love to take me out that week. I said no lmao I felt soooo confused I didn’t know what to say! I was constantly saying In my head “why do you decide to come back now!!!!” Lol I was so confused I decided to stay away from them both for my sake hahah.

Weeks passed and (Angel) opened up to me and told me he really likes me and would love to start something serious with me and here I am 4 months into our relationship lol.

But now!!!! I get stuck working pier night shifts with (Jason)!!!! Jason barley found out I’m with Angel. and Angel has no idea what went down with Jason!

Jason and I stayed in the friend zone after what went down between us , we actually stayed good friends and nothing ever went down between us again.. which I’m glad lol .

But now every time I see Jason and i know he knows that I’m with Angel I get all these feelings towards Jason & he flirts with me on purpose knowing I won’t respond or flirt back but it’s killing me idk what it is honestly!! It’s like the memories about him attract me to him, he’s constantly walking back and fourth from me at work, purposely passing so close to me we literally bump into each other or grabbing my hand on “accident” which I know it’s on purpose!! He’s literally like teasing me it’s killing me!

But when I’m with “Angel” everything and everyone can go to hell, I just want to be with him. It’s so perfect when I’m with him.

I feel like I’m just attracted too Jason cause of what went down between us... and he knows it .

I mean I don’t text or talk to Jason anymore ever since I started dating Angel ...just at work but the feelings are there somehow when I see him at work or when he talks to me ... idk what to do!!! I’m going crazy!