I want to be pregnant

So I secretly want to be pregnant. I had a dream last night that I got a faint positive. I’ve had serious baby fever recently and I just can’t stop thinking about it. When I got pregnant with my first I had a dream that I was pregnant so I tested. Now I’m dreaming of pregnancy again...oh and I’m only 10 weeks postpartum 🤦🏼‍♀️ I know it’s not very smart to get pregnant right now but I can’t help but hope that when I take a test it’ll be positive. 🤷🏻‍♀️ I was going to test today but every single store in my area was 100% SOLD OUT!!! So I’m going to wait a few days...