1st Pregnancy

I’ve always wanted a baby and I tried with my partner and never got pregnant in 11 years being together. We split up and I started dating someone that I really liked and developed feelings for. First time we had sex we bought protection but got carried away and didn’t use it. Then I came to find out a month later I was pregnant since the relationship was fresh and he wasn’t ready he made me get rid of the baby and I’m so depressed over it. I left him and got back with my ex of 11 years and still have not been able to conceive now I just feel worthless as a woman and hurt.