Everyone knows

I need to vent for a second because I'm so disappointed in my family right now.

So I'm only 7 weeks today. My husband and I decided to tell our parents and my grandparents. Have a grandma on mum's side and a grandpa on dad's side of the family. And my family is huge. I specially wanted to tell my grandpa because he just recently lost his wife. So far, so good. That was two days ago.

Turns out today, that my WHOLE family now knows. Means every aunt, uncle, cousin. EVERYONE.

This is going to be my first child. So I was really looking forward to tell people when I'm about 12 weeks. And now I'm just so mad and helpless, I don't even want to talk to anyone of them anymore. And I'm so mad at myself too for being so stupid to not have kept it a secret to everyone. It's my own fault.

I just want to get rid of this anger at my family. Specially my grandparents. I know, they are happy and that's why they wanted to share. And I love them so much. Yet I can't help the feeling of betrayal. Is it just my hormones? 😔