I have postpartum depression and anxiety

I’m glad I found this group. I have been suffering alone for too long. My baby boy is 15 weeks (12 adjusted) and he was super colicky for the first 2+ months... I mean screaming and crying all day long. It gave me extreme anxiety hearing the crying and it was difficult to cope. It still is as he is still a fussy/ high maintenance baby. Many days I miss the relationship I had with my husband prior to baby- it hurts I miss it so much. I love my baby but never imagined it would be this hard.