I’m so hurt

I’ve been with this guy almost 3 years ... the first year was great . He’s turned very controlling and emotionally abusive ... I stayed . Why ? I thought he’d changed. He left me for s couple of months the night he left me was the day my granny died. Shitty ? Well that night he was already with a girl ... so I “moved on” I hung out with an old friend I told him about it ... Jason ( the father of my child ) came back into the picture after saying he changed , I didn’t deserve it. So we started seeing each other again it was great . Till I found out I was pregnant with his child. As he’s the only guy I’ve been with and o basically love with him. It’s been hell , it’s killing me. * cry everyday . I beg him to love me.... He acts as if he does one day and the other day he hates me. I’m so lost and confused and hurt

This Saturday... he was fine right ?

This is today ....

I’m so confused. Does he want a family or not ? Part of me doesn’t want this for me or my baby. I’m not even aloud to have friends . Let alone talk to my sisters because of him ... ...

This was a couple months ago . It’s not like we didn’t “plan” this to happen. He even told me if we didn’t get pregnant we would keep trying ..

What do I do ?