I just broke down

I think I give up today is the day AF due and here I am spotting. Like what I’m doing wrong I just broke down and my husband even cried too because he wants to be a dad so bad this is my 2nd and his 1st with my first and other pregnancy which ended in a miscarriage I never found out until 3 months in my first pregnancy and 8 weeks in my second and I weren’t trying . I think I’m just going to give up trying and let it happen on its own. I’m really sad right now. Baby dust to u ladies good luck