going into depression about sex

So I’ve had many partners that I know regret having sex with.. all of them except one were a friend with benefits and one was my ex. So I totally use to cry about how I just gave my body up to these disgusting guys and it was all anojt me not thinking and just being dumb. Well I met this one guy that I really like and we’re young I’m 20 he’s 19 turning 20 soon. When we first started having sex it’s like it was fine, then we started having to use lube.. I didn’t use to wear condoms with my ex so it was a different change for me. So with the new guy (not technically new) but Using the lube made me feel self conscious about myself because i feel like I’m suppose to automatically be turned on by him. I like him so why can’t my vagina naturally get wet for him and it was only with a condom.. now I just feel like all of these things with my body is turning him off.. like we stopped using condoms because he says I’m wetter when he doesn’t wear one. Well my first time ever I had gotten a yeast infection and I’m like ok why is everything happening to me now.. so last night we had sex and he pulled out (weren’t finish) and he made me give him head then I got on top and he came immediately. I feel like me not being wet enough kind of irritates him. So it’s like he never wants to go round after round it’s always just that one time then we are finish. Or we will have sex again in the morning. He claims it’s because he’s to tired to go again. Like why am I not getting extremely wet!! Without a condom I do but with one I’m completely dry and lube has to be used irdk why. I’m falling into this depression about it. Idk if it’s because I feel like sex isn’t so needed like I can go without and he can go a while without also. Like I have a high asf sex drive but I’m never really already wet for him. I mainly get wet when he actually is doing it right and already inside of me but just preparing myself naturally no. When he fingers me im extremely wet but he doesn’t do foreplay much. He feels like I should already be wet enough. Which isn’t the case. I saw a saying that said “if she doesn’t get wet before you put it in she’s not into you” and I’m like umm is this true? Not really bc I do like him a lot. I’m worried about this and if it will affect us. Is there something wrong with me?