The last 3 years.

It started 3 years ago to this day. I meet someone and things got serious quickly. He moved in with me in November, i introduced him to my family and friends, everyone loved him. I found out i was pregnant around my birthday, December, we were excited, but then i miscarried January 15, 2016. He became abusive towards me saying it was my fault i lost the baby. He then apologized to me and we “fixed” things. During our relationship i became suicidal again and started binge eating i want from 115 pounds to 160 pounds. I found out i was pregnant again in march i told him on his birthday. He started on me again. I left him after our ultrasound in April. My best friend let me move in with him. We got me help for my depression and got me into counseling for the abuse. Then we started to become very close! He said he would love to be a dad and that he loved me and my unborn child. I was super scared but i said we could try it out.

He helped me thought out my high risk pregnancy, he helped make sure i had everything for my unborn child, which was a girl. We got her everything! He never missed an appt, he helped me through my 12 hours of natural child birth with no pain meds. He was the first beside me to hold her!

Her birth father has nothing to do with her but i don’t care, she has an amazing step dad, but nobody knows shes not his. After her i was at 182 pounds. During her first year of life, we have gotten engaged, bought a house, have two fur babies. I also beat my depression and started working again and lost 20 pounds! Back to 160 pounds! Then after her first birthday we found out i was pregnant again with twins! I was 8 weeks along when i lost one of them. So i became high risk once again, but was able to keep working.We found out before easter it was a little boy! At my 30 week appt i was told i was on bed rest and had to stop working. So i started my leave. I stayed at 160ish pounds during this pregnancy.Fast forward to now. We have an almost 2 year old little girl and a 7 week old son. Im Successfully breast feeding and have lost 30 pounds! 20 pounds to go!

During the last three years i have learned someone can completely destroy you, but the right person can make you so much better and happier then you’ve ever been before!

My advise is if your in an abusive relationship and don’t know if you’ll ever get better. Think again. You can do it! You just need a true friend there to help you!

Sorry its so long but thank you for reading if you did!