I honestly regret getting the epidural I was to numb to feel him being pushed out and it's one of the saddest thing about my labor I went in with this mindset that I wasn't going to get it and I was doing great honestly I should've have spoked my mind and insisted that i wanted to wait until being induced , and have him naturally but my anxiety got the best of me my thoughts did and now looking back the pains weren't even as bad as I thought. Even the nurses were suprised that I was 5cm dilated and sleeping with contractions, but we live to learn I guess and next time around I will be doing everything naturally. I just don't know I feel very sad for that same reason like I have failed this universe by taking some sort of cheat code to life.... I'm happy and love my baby he came out healthy and strong don't get me wrong but if I can go back in time I would change that ....