Don't know....

I know I don't have postpartum depression... But I just feel so weird about having a child around.... Thats mine & it's so hard to believe that this little human came out of me & I have to raise her. I did bond with her but I feel so disconnected... Like when I look at her I have so many mixed emotions like I don't know what to think. It's nothing bad, it's more like scared? I guess... Like what if I'm doing something wrong or I don't know what she wants because she can't walk or talk or tell me. You know? 😩 i haven't cried due to her but I've cried about my fiancé (he's in marine boot camp & he can't meet her until October)... Everytime I look at her, it reminds me of him & then I start thinking about him & start crying. It's just crazy to see my child being outside of me when she was inside of me for 8 1/2 months... Does anyone else feel this way about their baby? Anyone have any way I can solve this? I just feel like I'm a bad mom I guess 😔