Verbally cheating

Okay so I made a post last night about this and I wasn’t so clear on the whole situation.

Once apon a time a contact came to my knowledge that was his male “friends” name but had the snap chat in the information (usually when people have there number connected to snap chat it will appear in the contact info if you have yours synced as well) was a girls name. Odd right? Well I didn’t think too much of it because I had no reason to doubt him but then I started too, little things like deleting browser history, snap chatting other girls and so on... but nothing physical. The weird thing about everything is is that he was never really flirting with the girls on snap chat just talking to the... it was so sporadic that he messaged any of them, it wasn’t a consistent chat or whatever just random... anyways it’s been bothering me so I just was laying there in bed and that contact popped in my head so I blocked my number and called it, it was a girls contact... surprise surprise. I confronted him on this, he “didn’t know” and even messaged the contact saying he how’s agoinf bud it’s been awhile -the contact responded saying I think you have the wrong number but what I don’t get is she tried adding him on snap chat prior... so obviously she knows him. He has no time to cheat on me, we worked at the same place so I know his schedule but none of this makes sense!

I know it’s all so fishy and I’m so confused about my own feelings right now and it doesn’t add up, our relationship is good it’s not like we fight, we are friends and partners...sure we have our problems just like everybody does but nothing major. it hurts me and it’s hard to accept that it might just be the worse and what I have laid out, is the truth but a part of me is holding onto some crazy reason that maybe it’s not what I think because I love him, because were pregnant and we tried for so long to get this, because we had all these plans together, because he promised to love me unconditionally. I’m in no financial state to think about leaving... I make no money due to being off work because of pregnancy related issues and I feel stuck why would he create a baby with me if he has these feelings to do things like this? I don’t want to have a broken family. I guess it helps when I can just lay everything out on here and know there’s people who’ve been through this.

Sincerely, a broken girl.