Pregnant and stressed.

I’m currently 18 years old, newly graduated and 15 weeks pregnant. I’m living with the baby’s father and it’s been so stressful. For starters, I don’t want to be with him. But our son makes me feel obligated to stay with him. He works most days, I don’t work like he does because finding a job has been hard but I do small jobs for cash when I can find them. Which is also why I stay, I want my son to have everything that he needs when he’s here and he’s my only financial support.

When he’s getting ready for work, I have to make sure he’s up on time, pick out his work clothes, make breakfast and sometimes I HAVE TO sit in the bathroom with him when he gets ready. When he’s gone at work, I’m expected to clean the house, make him dinner, and make sure his pajamas are picked out and our room is the perfect temperature. Now, I don’t mind doing some of these things but I feel like some things he can do himself because it’s not like he doesn’t wear the same work clothes every day.

When he gets home, I have to greet him at the door or he thinks I don’t care about him or something. Then he goes to our room and takes off his clothes DIRECTLY NEXT TO where they’re supposed to go and leaves them there. If I don’t clean them up, or if I ask him to move them less than a foot to the right after he takes them off or he trips on them, I’m told that I don’t help him enough or I complain too much about doing things for him.

I just feel like he doesn’t see the things I’m doing just because I don’t make money like he does. I’m in the process of getting my license so that we can have a car. I work when I can. I watch after his father who lost his memory in an accident. I do the housework and other unnecessary things. But I’m still getting told I’m not doing enough, being called a prude or loser because he raped me and I don’t feel connected/comfortable, kept awake at +3 in the morning because he’s not ready for me to go to bed and he gets mad that I don’t spend my money (THAT I BARELY HAVE) on him. I literally don’t ask for money if I can’t give it back to him because I know he will complain. If he’s mad at someone that’s not me, I get yelled at.

Sometimes I feel like I’m going to be raising two children.. and he’s almost 21..