I didn't realize how real this was until I had my baby. Tuesday I had a beautiful baby boy, and Friday was our first full day home and I freaked the hell out. Like the whole weight of becoming a mother hit me like a ton of bricks and I thought I made a mistake. Like I'm not a mother. What have I done? I scared the crap out if my husband who is worried about me.

Luckily my husband so amazing and stepped up so much. And then my sister in law came to stay the weekend and help. I still have moments of panic. And want to cry, but I feel better. But I know if it continues I will seem help for postpartum depression.

Has any one else been feeling like this. I had no idea it'd be like this but everyone tells me it's perfectly normal.