Epiphany

My husband has ruined sex, marriage, and pregnancy experiences for me. So wtf am I staying? Why do I love him still?

Edit: he barely ever wants to have sex and I have a high sex drive. I just got cleared for normal activites after post partum. I gave him a BJ and then he went to sleep saying he owes me -.-. He was never happy about any of our pregnancies and I always wanted someone to be happy to actually have kids with me. Not make me cry for being pregnant and trying to talk me into an abortion. When he married me he told me he only did it to make me happy not because it meant something. And to get married was a freaking train wreck in itself. Like fuck. But he says he loves me through it all anyway. I hate it that I couldn't even get one fucking happy moment to keep. All it was was anger, hurt, and sadness.

Edit 2: and he just called me asking me of I paid the car payment. I said no and he freaked out saying he didn't want to lose the car. The payment isn't even due till Friday. Just kept telling me whatever and he'll take care of it because I can't basically 🤬🤬🤬