I give up

My cycle came on sun and I for sure thought this was the month I get my BFP but guess my body had other plans! 🤦🤦 I told my husband that I give up I'm going back to my old way. Just SEX!! So if he catches me then so b it but I will not run myself up the walls about it. We currently have 4 kids and I though I say I don't want more I find myself missing the connection we have wen I'm expecting and how he asks me for another child. *Sorry so long*