I need therapy

I know I’m damaged.

I’ve been raped.

I’ve been in abusive relationships.

I’ve been abandoned by my dad.

I’ve been judged and misunderstood by my mother.

All the stereotypes applied here.

Who doesn’t have issues. I get that. Depression and anxiety seem mainstream these days.

Idk how to fix myself. I tried therapy as a child after witnessing the death of my cousins.

My therapist wanted to fuck my mom so he wasn’t really there for me. Which tainted therapy for me.

I’m assuming therapists aren’t all like this.

So i should seek help again... right?.