It hurtssss😰😰😰😰😰

I had a beautiful baby boy a month ago. I feel blessed to have him. However my delivery was very difficult. I had a 4 degree tear with episiotomy forcep delivery. I know it heals with time. But I am tired, I am in constant pain and discomfort 24 hrs. I had catheter for 2 weeks after delivery. Then I got infected down there. Then when I thought Its getting better, I got urine infection. I am not able to sit and not able to breastfeed my baby. My milk formation is very low, I have to pump 8 times a day still not enough. He does not latch easily. I know everyone says motherhood is awsome but it has taken away a lot from me. I feel like a looser😢😢.

Sorry for the long post...