Anyone else or words of encouragement

I’m posting anonymously so I don’t get mean messages, but I need to hear I’m not alone or some words of encouragement. Here’s the deal:

My pregnancy has been tough. HG with vomiting daily until 22 weeks. Then 5 weeks of being “decent” then at 27 weeks I was put on bed rest because I’m having contractions and my cervix has thinned a bit. So needless to say I’ve been pretty overwhelmed medically this entire time.

I’m actually hating being pregnant. I’m not excited about it the way most women are. I haven’t taken any bump photos, I don’t want to, I haven’t done anything to set up for the baby. We don’t have a name picked out. Her kicking makes me have more contractions so I can’t enjoy those moments either. I cannot wait to be a mom I am excited to meet her and bring baby home and my husband is as well so we aren’t monsters, but I feel like all the complications I’ve had have really put a damper on this experience for us. I wish I felt bonded with her already like so many of you are with your babies but I’m just not. I want to get to my due date and just deliver already so this can be over and that makes me sound like a terrible person. 😕 I’m on bedrest for the next 10 weeks which means I can’t work and I don’t get a paycheck so we are financially really stressed out as well.

Anyway I just needed to get that off my chest anonymously because I’ve been carrying around this guilt the entire 29 weeks and I’m exhausted by it.