Struggling with Weight Gain

I just needed to get this out there to others who might be having similar struggles. I'm currently 20 weeks 5 days.

My entire life I've tried to keep my weight down, but haven't ever be really accepting my weight until right before I found out I was pregnant. I weighed about 152 when I found out. I thought since I'd finally been happy and accepting my weight, it'd be okay for me to slowly gain during pregnancy.

First trimester blahs combined with my mom's cancer diagnosis resulted in me not exercising like I wished I would have so I started to gain earlier than I probably should have. I weighed myself last night and I was 168. That number was pretty hard to see (please no hurtful comments - I know it's a fine number, just expressing how it made me feel). I worry that I'm on track to gain more than the recommended 25-35 lbs and that terrifies me.

I go to exercise classes 3 times per week most weeks now, and I'm going to try to maintain a balanced diet. I'm just having trouble seeing what this pregnancy is going to look like for me in relation to weight gain until March.

I'd be more okay with the weight gain if it was all in my stomach, but I know my thighs are getting bigger too.

Please no hate for this post. I know I'm not gigantic by any means. It's probably pretty normal the weight I've gained. Although it is hard to see women who I haven't gained much by 20 weeks, I know others have gained like I have.

I'm so thankful for my baby being healthy at his 20 week scan so I know my body is doing what it's supposed to. I probably shouldn't be so hard on myself and I know it's going to be worth it in the end.

Just wanted to express how difficult it is for me to accept the weight I've gained. I've always struggled with mental health issues and that certainly hasn't let up in pregnancy. pregnancy is hard, my body always feels so weird, and I'm afraid it's just going to get worse. I don't know how to accept the way my changing body looks and feels.

I wish I could feel confident, cute pregnant not fat pregnant.

I can't be the only one with these feelings right?