I feel guilty.. am I cheating

Soooo I was with a guy for nearly 4 years. The first year things were amazing but things progressively got worse without me realizing any of it was wrong bc it was my first relationship and he was all of my firsts as well. He started to be controlling, mentally and physically abusive, and never spend time with me. I expressed how I felt in every way possible but it never meant anything. I broke up with him almost a month ago but 2 weeks into it he texted me saying he’d been trying to see me(I blocked him). I kept telling him no and that I was done and then he asked to have sex and told me that he didn’t care what I had to say that it was going to happen and it did. We had sex and of course emotions came back but I still knew that it wasn’t right anymore and that I needed to let go. The next day his house got raided by the police. I helped him in the situation and supported him through it although I didn’t want to be with him. He started being nice to me and it felt so wrong. During those 2 weeks I met this guy at the gym and we became friends. We would always talk and work out when we saw each other. So my ex had stuff at my house. He blew up my phone yesterday while at work telling me he needed his stuff now. Got mad and called me every name in the book. Took back everything he got for me all bc I wasn’t home when I told him I wouldn’t be home. He told me he will go find better, that I’m the n word, b word, every bad word and basically said I’m worthless and that all he does is use me. Said that’s why he came back that’s he’s moving and that he doesn’t care. I hardly responded bc I knew it was coming. It’s a toxic cycle. I got home he was taking the screen off my window trying to break in like he said he would. He got his stuff, I said don’t come back, and he left. I blocked his number.. fast forward to today. I go to the gym see the guy and we start talking and working out. He always makes me laugh and pushes me to be the best me and to achieve my goals. Something I’ve never had before. He asked me to go eat and I said yes. I feel guilty. We ate and watched the office. He kept telling me that I was so pretty that I’m the prettiest girl in The world. Telling me that I make him nervous and just planning stuff with me for the future. It was crazy. I was laughing and having a great time. We went outside and it was cold so I started shaking. He asked if I was cold I said yes and then he opened his arms. I was scared. He hugged me and I felt warm but it’s the first time I’ve hugged another man. I felt good but guilty all at the same time. Am I wrong for this? I kept saying no and that I’m ugly and he just asked do you not believe that you are and honestly that kinda hurt bc ive been so put down that it’s hard to hear good things from a man bc I feel like it’s only lies. I’ve been told for years that I’m not good enough, that He could do better than me, told my vagina is loose, literally anything negative hurtful thing a person could be told, I was told. He kept wanting to hug me bc I was cold and would just look in me eyes. Then we left. I just want to know if I’m wrong? I don’t know what to do. Should I feel guilty? Am I a hoe am I cheating? I know my ex will come back and do the same thing. I’m scared he doesn’t want me to move on and I’m scared to. Any thoughts??