ashamed

when i was 12 i had an older friend who wanted o have sex with me.. at the time i didn’t understand but i said yes. it’s been 4 years and it’s still a secret from everyone in my life.. and i think i have an sti but i can’t tell anyone. so now i’m in a new relationship and i’m never going to have sex with him...

i’m 16. and it honestly doesn’t matter. i’m going to kill myself soon anyways.