Just Need Some Help

Let me start by saying that I am so glad I found this group! I’ve been searching all over for a group as such. & this has been posted in another group as well.

My period was due to come on Halloween. I began spotting on the 30th followed by a day and a half of actually bleeding. Every since then I’ve been spotting but it’s only when I wipe. It’s more of a brownish pink EW discharge. I should say here that I have been having faithful 4 days periods every since I had my BC implant removed in January of this year. We are currently ttc but I didn’t keep up with my journal or track my symptoms (didn’t want to spend my days symptom spotting) though I did confirm my ovulation with a positive opk. But every since I started the spotting there has been a heavy feeling in my uterus along with some throbbing. I’ve also been extremely fatigued, have had diarrhea, and have gotten light headed on a few occasions. I contacted my doctor on Friday and they asked me to call Monday to make an appt if I continued to feel this way. I do have Crohn’s Disease and was born with hirschsprung disease but I’ve been absolutely flare free for over an year now. I took a pregnancy test this morning just to see and it was negative (pictured below). I did what I swore I wouldn’t do this month and googled my symptoms, lots of scary stuff popped up. I was just wondering if there was any women out there with Chronic Illnesses that could tell me their symptoms the month that they received a BFP. I would love to be pregnant but I’m really nervous that this is a relapse as well. I’m sorry if I’m rambling, I’m just a ball of nervousness and excitement.