Me and my soon to be ex husbands divorce will be final in 2 weeks. We currently are still living together because neither one of us can afford to be separated. We have 2 kids together, and we felt like the best thing for them right now was security. I have no one in the world, my family lives across the country from me and I never see them, his dad is dieing of cancer and he suffers severely from ptsd. We have been together 10 years and married 9.5. Got married at 18 and lots of problems of being young and trying to raise a family and being married. We’re still best friends, but I know deep in my heart I could never be in love with him again, so as the divorce is drawing near, he’s convinced himself that it will be okay and we will still “pretend” to be married. Like nothing has changed except our separate bank accounts. My heart is torn because he’s the one who went through the divorce after we had a lot of problems this summer, and after I begged him not to go through with it. I know I got married young and I know

There’s so much more I want and need in life. How long do

I keep this charade of a life going? I literally would be homeless if we weren’t together as both of our incomes supports each other. I just want to know, has anyone gone through this situation? Is it possible I’ll be okay? Will I ever find myself? And is it weird that I haven’t cried?